With the Thought of a Friend

Pace yourself,
Breathe in, breathe out.
Express your world, but never shout.
He's standing there.
He hears it loud.
If he walks away.
Then he's struck out.

Embrace yourself.
And cry, and smile.
And bow your head, and blow it out.
He's standing there,
He knows by now.
I love him but he's just struck out.

He ignores my soul.
He sighs when I'm there.
He wants to be nice, but he knows he don't care.
He smiles sometimes, he likes to front.
I'd call him out, with words of blunt,
But if I do he'll never come, around,
But maybe that's not so wrong.
I love him but I know he won't.

He's never home, he hates it there.
The world is where he hides, he's scared.
He cuddles close to his feelings and when
He believes he's just a worthless man
He sulks insides his pain and dread,
and you'll never get him away from there.
He knows it but he loves the cold.
(Afraid the hawks will hunt his soul)

I wonder what really makes him shake,
The thought of care?
Or the comfort of pain?
He cares but in his mind it's "whatever".
In his heart he longs to find "forever".
And his soul, it aches to find warm weather.
He's been outside, and cold for so long.
But he will decline, if you bring him a home.
With fire, and cookies, and blankets, and light.
He's afraid to be soft, though he's putty inside.

I wonder what fathomed our worlds to collide.
I'm BAM! and I'm BOOM!
He's COUGH and he's SIGH.
But maybe the BOOM will break his behind.
I keep that thought in the front of my mind.
It brings me hope that my hearts not in vain,
That what I want for him, he wants just the same.
I care, and he cares, but the actions to blame.
When one heart's all go, and the others afraid.

So I
Pace myself,
Breathe in, breathe out.
Express my world, but never shout.
He's standing there,
He hears it loud.
If he walks away...
Then he's struck out.

-With the Thought of a Friend, Written by: Christina Riggs

Um yeah, it's kinda IMPORTANT!!

For anyone out there that thinks that running away from your problems, or holding them inside of you, is going to benefit you in any way, please...stop!

That is the worst thing in the world you could ever do! We were not made to handle things on our own. why do you think God created Eve? Because he knew that, one Adam would want a mate like the animals had, but also because if Adam would have been on earth all alone, he would have went crazy! People need people. It's just the way we were designed. And it's so easy to feel like no one will ever understand what we're going through, or the fact that you just might be so afraid of what might happen once you let go. But i can promise you, you'll be surprised who understands, and you'll be so relieved once you let it go. You'll never grow if you hold on to it.

So i encourage you, find someone, MATURE, who can really help you. Someone you trust and feel so safe around. Someone you know is going to give you the BEST advice, not what you WANT to hear, but what you NEED to hear. Take it. Embrace it. Accept it. Love it.

And LIVE!

-Girl

Coffee

Ok. So...I'm officially hooked on coffee. For years I was like "Oh, I don't like coffee", but my goodness, this Blue Mountain Coffee from Jamaica is the business!! Especially when you pair it with French Vanilla creme. Mmmmm...Slap yah momma for me will yah?



That jive is good. The coffee runs for about 30bucks BUUUUT, I've got the discount spot for yah, you can get it from Marshall's for about 5 bucks. It's so good. Shooot, it turnt me out!! But you have to be quick about it because people buy it up really fast, so if you see it there, then get it. I usually get the one in the blue pack, idk what the one in the orange one tastes like...shoot...it might just be the same in a different pack color. lol But in all cases:


Say it loud everyone! "I'm Blue and I'm proud"

-Girl

Say...What!?

Howdy all! Just checking in, I'm bored at my aunts house taking care of my cousin and grandma, til 11am. My aunt has soooo many sweets in her house...I know it's a test. lol But I've been good and in control! lol

But um, I've started back up writing poetry again. I haven't written a poem in months which is bad because I used to write them every other day. I guess at some point in time, you just don't have the time to write three page, detailed poems about life cuz you're too busy living it. But it felt good, and I was interested to see how my perception and my poetry has changed over time. And I like the way I write now. I'm trying to get back to the old me. I was so international in my poetry, them suddenly I started writing about guys and...jive lol. I guess that happens when you get older. But, guys are no longer an issue anymore, cuz I don't have a crush on anybody! YAY! I'm so happy. That's like +20 mood points. (Ha. I got that from Sims 3)

Umm. What else? OH! I'm writing a story, it's a Sci-Fi Fantasy story lol. Which is pretty different cuz I've never written a story in that genre before; let's see...I've done Drama, Action/Adventure, Comedy, and I think that's it. But I like writing Fantasy because I get to create my own language which I am having a BALL doing. Want a sample of some words? ok.

No: Nai
Yes: Tes

And some other words of course, that I won't share lol. But trust, the rest of the language is interesting. lol I'm writing the story on Notepad instead of Word. IDK. I love the default font on Notepad, and I just love the original feel it gives, and I love how it looks, It's amazing. Although it lacks things that Word has, it doesn't lack in any necessity.

I also got back to working on my clothing line. I stopped for a while. But I recently had this cool idea to do for an accessory, so I went ahead and drew and outfit for it too. I love my clothing line, I think it represents the kind of girl I am, PERFECTLY and TOTALLY.

But in all cases, I hope everyone's having a great day today. I have a busy one ahead. I have 2 parts at my meeting tonight, so I'm kind of nervous. But I'll get over it.

-Girl

WELCOME!

To 2010

-Girl

December 18, 2009

Mmmm Hello Doll.

Hope you've been doing good.

-Girl

Russian Roulette

Ok! So after thoroughly listening to Rihanna's song. I've come to the realization that it's NOT about suicide. When I listen to it, this is what I hear.

I hear a story about a girl, who's going through a lot of pain with a guy who's trying to tear her down. He's telling her to take a gun and kill herself, figuratively meaning to give up on life, to stop and to let him control her. But throughout the song she's talking about how afraid she is, and how much she really does want to give up, but at the end of the chorus she's saying "I'm terrified but I'm not leaving, know that I must pass this test, so just pull the trigger". She's saying "LOOK HERE! I'M SCARED, YEA, BUT I'M GONNA GET THROUGH THIS, I'M GONNA BE STRONGER THAN THIS, SO YOU KNOW WHAT? YOU CAN OFF URSELF CUZ I'M NOT GONNA GIVE UP"

And I think whoever wrote that song, is the BOMB. Because it's so deep and you really have to think to get it. It's a song of empowerment, not a song of suicide and hopelessness. Cuddos to her.

Get over him!

-Girl