I met him and we literally only spoke for 1 minute, but I thought about him the rest of the day, and now we've been talking, and he's like...got me going crazy.
How do you fall into something so deep within a minute?! This is crazy, it might be infatuation, but I really hope it isn't. He makes me stop everything I'm doing. He makes me waste hours waiting to see his name pop up on facebook in hopes that he'll private chat me again.
The first time he did it, my heart sounded like the drum arrangement on Kelly Clarkson's song "Behind these Hazel Eyes". I almost had a panic attack and died.
See, this is why I try not to crush on guys too much. They throw me out of my game. Everyone thinks he likes me, and I hope he does, but then again i hope he doesn't because i am so scared. lol Hence the real reason I've never had a bf. idk what to do. =( And I'm scared it won't work or last. I don't wanna cry or break up or get dumped. Because..then what?
How can we still be friends. I'll always wonder "what if we didnt break up". But I suppose if I ran away now I'd always wonder "what if" anyway. So I'd rather experience it and KNOW what it's about, then sit outside and wonder the wrong "what if" for the rest of my life.
Man...until next time.
-Girl
